It healed my yoni from the inside out.
Like many women, I have a history of $exual trauma, including rape when I was a teenager and $exual assault when I was 25. Like many women, I kept this stuffed down for many, many years. And like many women, what I stuffed down had many layers of stored tension, shame, guilt, rigidity, sexual health issues (recurring yeast infections in my case), difficulty with orgasm, zero connection to my female body, relationship and emotional issues, and a cool, calm and collected attitude that I was “good.”
I was not good. I was disconnected from myself, partners, friends, and spirit. I was disconnected from my desires, needs, fears and loves. Disconnected from my passion, purpose, tears, anger, sadness, laughter and joy.
One day I realized I was carrying all this, and decided I didn’t want to live like that anymore. I found much healing in yoga, meditation, and self/spiritual development work, but I was still ignoring my $exuality and female body and deep down knew at some point I would have to face it.
Then the jade egg (and other TaoTantric) practices gracefully came into my life. And oh boy, did things start to shift, big fuckin time.
How did this happen? Well, I had been virtually ignoring womb, pussy, breasts - my female body – for my entire life (despite being very into yoga, which, ironically, did connect me to my body deeply, just not my female body…). So once I began giving space to these super powerful and important parts of myself, and holding everything that came up with loving acceptance and presence, things began to shift.
I know you’ve heard it. What you resists, persists. What you feel, you heal. It’s true. I resisted my own female body – her pleasure, beauty, power.. her erotic blueprint, creativity, deep wisdom… her very own cycles and the magic inherent in that for SO long – and once I began to tap into all of this through work with the jade egg, TaoTantra, and my own intuitive wisdom… well, all my shit came up to be felt and healed. At that time I had developed a solid ability to hold myself, but I also sought a lot of external support to hold space for me.
The Jade Egg creates space for women’s sexual healing by inviting her to go to the places she has not gone before. One simple example this works is every time you use your egg, you feel your pussy and ask her if she wants to receive the egg today. And you listen (trust me she will speak when you give her space). If she says yes, brilliant! If she says no, brilliant (you can do a whole jade egg practice with no egg inside and still get a lot of benefits). If she says maybe, brilliant (and then you can have a conversation with her to find out what she needs/wants, if anything, to feel a clear yes/no). This act, especially when done repetitively, is deeply healing for women.
Most women haven’t gone to their yonis in ways that are truly restorative and healing because we’ve been subtly taught for years not to go there – the messages are it’s not safe, it’s not ok, you won’t be loved, you won’t belong, which equate to death to the subconscious mind. This shit runs so deep. Another reason I’ve found women don’t go there is simply a lack tools, resources and support.
I’m here to tell you it IS ok – you can go there in ways that are safe, gentle, loving. You can find support so that you will feel held, loved and a sense of belonging (and even community and sisterhood) as you navigate these waters. PM me if you want more info.
How does this all land with you? Comment below or send me a PM.
If it's time for you to make the leap, check out my jade egg beginner's package on my website, and use the coupon code pussylove at checkout for 20% off Included is a jade egg, ebook, and 6 free meditations to use with the jade egg (including a special healing practice to release what no longer serves you in your feminine center).<3
**Disclaimer: The jade egg is a holistic tool, and it alone may not be able to heal all your shit, as we women carry a long lineage of sexual repression and abuse deep within our cells. It’s usually supportive for a woman to approach her healing journey as that – a journey. Some combination of jade egg/tao tantric work, coaching/mentoring/therapy, body/energy work, joining online courses/communities and live courses/retreats/trainings/immersions to do this work with other women is very effective. PM me for more info.